With much angst, I’m launching the opening page to
ME & HIM: a Guide to Recovery, companion sequel to
ME & HER: a Memoir of Madness.
ME & HIM reveals shattering NEW revelations in the saga of student and parent abuse upon me, teacher Karen Tyrrell, my incarceration into a psychiatric hospital and my pro-active steps to recovery.
Posting this page is a gut-wrenching decision: once again exposing my personal life history for the world to see.
I’m psyching myself to be brave with these new disclosures not only about myself but about those I love the most.
With my eyes snapped shut, I suck in a deep breath and pray.
Hoping you’ll understand my motivations.
So here’s the BRAND NEW opening to ME & HIM: a Guide to Recovery, my self-help book. Please let me know what you think.
On a brilliant blue sky day, my husband Steve finally revealed the awful truth to me.
‘You better rewrite that memoir of yours. What I’m going to tell you now will change everything.’
On that fateful day, my life as I knew it fell apart.
Unknown to me, my life story as depicted in my memoir, ME & HER: A Memoir of Madness was flawed with self-lies, half-truths and self-deceptions. My family, friends and those closest to me were part of a conspiracy to protect me from the truth.
Shocking new information had now come to light. ME & HER was written in a ‘fool’s paradise’. What I had innocently believed for seven years was untrue.
This revelation shook my world and my previous perceptions.
I had to make a decision whether I should rewrite my memoir based on these new revelations. But the problem was that I hadn’t resolved those issues or forgiven myself or those involved.
I wrangled with the choice of adding new exposé memoir chapters to my companion self-help book A Guide to Recovery which I had already commenced.
Worse, I grappled with a personal quandary to disclose this new confidential information about me, and my family, placing myself on the line once again as my personal life is aired in public. I suffered the pangs of angst, worrying about how the world will perceive me, and my life.
I struggled with one dilemma after another on whether to self-sacrifice my private life. Would my new memoir chapters advance deeper understanding of mental illness, and answer questions as to why someone would become so severely ill?
Could I hold my head up high and say ‘Yes, I did the right thing’?
After much deliberation, I chose to add those new highly intimate memoir chapters to my companion sequel. I renamed my book ME & HIM: A Guide to Recovery.
I guess you’re wondering who’s the HIM in the ME & HIM equation. The HIM is my number one supporter, my husband Steve Tyrrell, who weathered my bipolar storms, which battered our lives more like cyclones.
Steve was always there for me as my guardian and watchdog, always looking out for my physical, mental and emotional health. He stayed by my side through one crisis after another.
But Steve was also the keeper of secrets.
What did you think of my opening page?
Is the first page gripping enough to pique your interest?
Do you want to read more?
PLEASE let me know 🙂
Did I do the right thing in publishing ME & HIM?
PS. This blog was edited. KT.